"Be positive". Oft given advice and a remedy for almost anything. Easily said. There have even been books written about the power of being positive. Some of the proponents make you feel quite guilty about feeling bad about anything. Even bad events can be seen in a positive light. Bad things don't happen to positive people.
Bad things do happen to positive people. But the advice keeps coming in from all directions. "Stay positive."
Through much of thisj experience of pancreas cancer I have managed to maintain a positive attitude. It wasn't difficult for a while. The marker was stable and I was feeling all right. But things change. Setbacks occur and you begin to wander what is really in store.
A few weeks ago I began with great abdominal discomfort. Then the marker changed. The new treatment seemed to help but going on holiday after only one treatment didn't. The fevers got worse. The pain increased and the Panado had to make way for stopayne. Yesterday we cut our holiday short. An extra treatment before the yer end break seemed like a better option. Not really great to be bed ridden in Knysna.
As a result I am not quite as positive as I was. That could change if there is just a little reason for hope.
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